sailing on

2007-08-10T20:20:00.000+08:00

there's something really wrong with my internet explorer. i can't get into msn.. and some other sites.. like blogger, it's weird because it has never happened before? and i don't see what the problem is now.. i'm getting worried, am i getting a virus attack? better get down to the techs soon.. anyway, i thought i'd update earlier, but it was 7pm and that meant -ah, i just momontarily forgot the name of the show..-so now..

i just wanted to release the fact that the spatial story is very close to being OVER!!! yay! one thing that's standin in my total coverage of freedom is the joint crit, possibly the most important thing. and now, kan is playing me a guitar solo she just created over the phone.. hahahahha.. anyway.. before that i have to get some clothes! wah ha ha. ah. i'm distracted. because kan is talking to me over the phone, and she has just infused me with some of her music creating cells through diffusion so.... ah.

diao diao diao diao diao diao diao diao diao...(don't minsunderstand, i'm just trying to put the tune into words.. the tune that kan just played me...)

heh.

2007-08-07T00:22:00.000+08:00

well, i'm writing here again.. anyway, my intention is to fulfill the TAGGED task wongyuenleng has given to me. ha ha. it's pretty fun, in a way. you learn something new about the people around you everyday, if you pay attention. heh. but before that, i just want to say, OHMYGOODNESS FINAL SUBMISSION IS THIS FRIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!! A1 PANELS NEED PHOTOSHOP AND THEY COST 20 BUCKS AT LEAST FOR EACH BOARD!!!!!!!! SCANNING ALSO NEED MONEY!!!!???????!!!??? WHAT'S THE WORLD COMING TO?!???!!!?!?!?!?!?!?? ahhh- ok, i guess i'm done. for now :D alright, i'm ready to move on.

ten weird/strange/new facts about rebecca yong li jia:(random ar.)

-when you're talking to me, i may look like i'm stoning or on drips, but i'm NOT!!!! really, i just have my face okay...

-i love eating potatoes(okay this may not be new to some.. but anyheck.. i''ve been living for 17 years, around people... okay, what's my point? arh. go figure, and if you get the answer, kindly let me know too? ha ha ha.)

-i eat ban mian when i don't know what to eat. (okay, i told yuen leng this already, but ah.)

-i love daisies, prolly the only kind of flower i like..

-i love veggetables but i can't live without meat.

-i like SP's FC 2's chicken rice chilli, superb. (okay, i told somebody this too.. but ah..)

-i like jazz on rainy days

-i function the best at night

-i'm not that actually a noisy person.. ha ha. (some may be surprised, but ah... oh well. :D)

i'm leaving the last one open.. i like to think that i'm constantly getting to know myself as well. okay lah. i can't think of anything else.. maybe i'll fill it up next time.. okay. i'm done. now i'm suppose to tag somebody else too right? since this is how the 'game' goes, i shall follow the rules..

of course KANyinghua, and ANGzane and anybody else. ha ha. :D

i think i'll be posting a lot of photos.. they just have a way of expression. :) this picture makes me happy. that one moment where time stands still, this suspension makes me happy, that man has found another way to fulfill their long desire of flying.. or even to stop time for a second.. in fact it doesn't but it feels like..

oh well. see you people again..

i'll be right there

2007-08-05T23:14:00.000+08:00

hoots people! i think FOP would have ended by this time.. such such a pity i couldn't be there.. i'm utterly convinced that i'd have enjoyed myself better if i had attended, but oh well, family duty calls. But, i also enjoyed myself with the company of my family members.. times like that are actually rare if you know what i mean.. :) we went to uncle's temporary stay, at the Swissotel, he was staying at the 50th!!!! level!!!!! mygoodness, and it's view is just absolutely breathtaking, the wind was also strong i could have flown off, considering the hunger fact that i was having.. Pictures!

that's the view we were getting when we visited uncle's room. wonderful, beautiful. well, then it is the food part now, like finally :)) haha, i told 2nd sister that i was SO hungry that it didn't matter that dinner was macdonald's. ha ha, i was just SOOOOOOooooooo hungry. it's actually quite serene up there.. we had quite a nice dinner.. prawn paste chicken/asparagus(it was actually nice.. i was amazed :)/chestnut drink/crayfish(it wasn't fresh at all, ate half of it only)/ small jie lan/what else? don't remember.. but it was still good, because it was one meal that kept me alive.. hahaha. the highlight, was ben&jerry's strawberry cheesecake ice-cream!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha. felt so happy when mummy bought me that one cone. yay! anyhow, happy hours end now that monday is coming VERY soon. so...........i'll get going.. delirious!!! i shall miss you guys very very very very much. :D

what unites us is much stronger than what divides us God is similing over us tonight...

2007-08-04T00:37:00.000+08:00

i want to update a bit before i start on my night work. i just came back from FOP! lovely lovely time of the year :) It's Delirious and Don Moen and Pst Phil Pringle this year! :D it's presence packed i tell you. i think it all really boils down to the attitude you have when you come into FOP. it is different this year. well, it's different every year, so yeah. haha. Don moen surprised me though.. haha, even if it's already the second year that he's attending FOP, but somehow or rather, this year, it just struck me lor. :D there's a time and tide for everything? haha. Pst Phil never fails to stir up the spirit-man, and Martin simth's eyes are still shiny and nice (ahhhhhhhhh.. haha!). what really touched me was the Don moen part. He never sleeps He never slumbers.. it's a wonder how He never gets tired of my whinning.. haha, nazel(is that how u spell that?) twang.. so after day 1 i'm here listening to The Mission Bell.. i've been listening to them whenever i begin my night work.. it's just easier you know.. :) lovely lovely

i'll be bias a bit.. haha, delirious's photo only.. it's their biography leh.. now i got one more item on my shopping list.. it's getting longer.. Delirious and U2 are like the ultimates in two different worlds but for only one purpose. I LOVE IT!! the difference would be that.. U2 has yet to come to singapore.. woah- haha, but i believe in miracles(ya, ang zane? haha) :) if not, worse come to worse, i'll meet U2 in heaven lor... HAHAAHAHHAHAHAHAHA- anyhow, i'll be starting my night work, i'm cutting my hair tomorrow, with ang and kan.. and the time also don't know 11am/12noon. and that ang zane say he won't come online, he's online lor! hah. okay. i'm done.

untie this rope, i'm staying with Him, love of my life

2007-07-30T21:13:00.000+08:00

it's SOOOOOO noisy in here!!!!!!!!!!!! it's the time of the month where buddhist beliving friends thrive...? haha, no offence here, but i'm not sure what the word it is to descibe the loud sounds that is coming from my flat's void deck area.. i was looking forward to the only peace and quiet i get in a day at night.. :/

anyway, it makes me happier when i hear people asking me when i haven't been updating, it proves that somebody besides myself is reading. :) haha. oh i feel like i need the toilet now.. for some business..

tonight is one of the few nights where there is actually particular urgent to rush for the next day. but it does holds a lot of catching up for me.. though i actually doubt myself if i'd really have the motivation to do it... oh, and ive photoshop now.. i thought i'd enjoy it but.. oh dear.. :/ i'm not doing very well in this.. bottomline, i ain't no computer personal... :/ not very good, juding the fact that everything's SO computerized nowadays..

hmmm..

the 2nd sister saw a lao ti ko on the bus journey home.. mygoodness. let me recount the story for you. 2nd sister was on the way home, then she saw this old indian guy who was standing VERY near a chinese lady who apparently has a big bossom on her physical resume. this indianLTK was standing so close towards the BBlady that if you used a ruler to measure, the result of distance would be 2cm. indianLTK then put his hands into his pocket and starting to try and position his crotch area towards BBlady. yeck! BBlady feels uncomfortable and shifts around, but due to the sardine container area space of the bus, she has no where to go except to keep shifting around... what's so grossingly gross about indianLTK was that he was obviously staring at BBlady's face and generouns bossom.. YECK! 2nd sister couldn't take it no more, she typed out a warning on her phone and shown it to BBlady.. then when the chance came, BBlady went to the rear of the bus AWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY from that indianLTK.. ohmygoodness, why do such people exist? sheesh. all the while 2nd sister was staring defiantly full of angst at the indianLTK, he apparently did not dare to look at 2nd sister.. judging from the situation, if he dared, i don't think he'd be alive.. hahaha. 2nd can be very scary........ yeeks! hahahaha..

This week's FOP!!!! i think it's the ultimate testing of the real meaning that lies in praise. the language of faith.. MY FINAL SUBMISSION WILL BE IN THE FOLLOWING WEEK!!!!!!!!!!!!! thinking about it makes me nervous already.. ohmygoodness, truth to be spoken i have zero confidence in myself.. okay, over with that, but regardless of myself, i can trust in Him :) i know i can. when others only find themselves beside themselves, i know you're forever there beside me. i'm grateful for this love.

alrighty, i shall get back in preparing my OC pre 2 which i should have presented last week but due to some topic conflict and last hour panic and craven-ness i have to present this week. so..

i could be stuck here for a thousand years without your arms to drag me out

2007-07-30T01:47:00.000+08:00

it's been a while, certainly... with this harry potter series craze, perspective, plan and section drawing, birthday celebration, ministering svc, longing, desire, super late nights etc. what a life.

there's no mistake in this choice that was made

oh, keep my feet upon your righteousness-

2007-07-24T01:01:00.000+08:00

ooh, it's 1am only. heh, compared to yester night, 1am is early. last night was the mad rush of final design model making, it's quite amazing i only slept for 3plus hours and still was able to wake for the next day's lecture.. of course i have to credit guyabove for this strength :) anyhow, time should be able to slow down for a bit now.. before the residential project comes, yikes.

oh, i've heard so much about deathly hallows.. can't wait to get my stubby fingers on it!! :) but first i'll faithfully read through the series respectively. i wonder how emma would react to the decision, oh man, i die!? haha, well, if you got that.. good fer ya! ha-ha.

here is my final product :)

falling at your feet on my knees

2007-07-18T23:36:00.000+08:00

the least you could do was to respond. the way you keep running you think i don't know you're avoiding? if you don't want just say. i wonder where my friend went.

2007-07-15T23:42:00.000+08:00

i have no idea how this update should go about so i'd let the pictures do the talking? anyw- the train reflection pictures were when havi fiona and i went to watch Transformers rather impromtuly.. :) it was superbly fantastic. havi only agreed to photos like these because you can't see her face properly.. cheh. lol.

these next two were because we got bored or expired from doing our spatial experience models that we cranked up and went crazy especially with su jiiiii's hair.. haha. her hair is super ... you can, omg. victor's online.. he's back from re-service :( i was getting use to mondays with no cadp.. anyw. her hair, you can just twist it around and it stays like that, from the pictures you can see that right? and the fascinating thing about it is that you don't have to use hair gel at all, it stands on it own.. what a wonder, you learn something new about your friends everyday.. lol. this is what we do when you get too cooked up in studio.. it looks like she has a mow-hawk from the side ya? a really different kind. haha.

anyway, so that's about all i'm going to say.. i just hope everything goes on well. period.

2007-07-14T00:50:00.000+08:00

OMG!! can you just check sun out who's also known as geisha!?!! she's so pretty!! ohmygoodness. wow-ness people. she looks amazing :) can't wait for her video to come out!!!!!

2007-07-11T00:46:00.000+08:00

i mentioned to esther, fiona and havi that daniel libeskind is my hero, because i think he really is a good architect. but really, Bono, is wow.. you see i'm researching on U2 for my OC Pre 2 stuff and i came across this interview with the band

There's a song lyric that talks about being loved too much. "No, you can't love too much. You can't out-give God." He pauses. "But you should try, I think. That's where I'd like to spend the rest of my life.", he(Bono) said this

ahh- a lifetime of rock and roll and God, how lovely is that? haha.

and The Edge.. i'm looking at him in a different perspective.. you know how he got his name!? it was given to him by Bono because of the sharpness in his facial features and how his mind works.. but he's actually only has a gentle nature.. but then again you know how i know? because other people interview him and described it this way... heh, whaewer-

i seriously am considering U2 by U2.. :) i've been wanting to get my hands on it ever sinced it came out anyway.. i just need to gather the loose change and have enough to turn them into notes and buy the biography.. :))

anyway, i have to write a 500/800-1000 word essay on U2 on wednesday OC which is later today so... ya. oh and i'm going to watch harry potter with the girls after OC.. another hole in the pocket because it's premeire... :/ i'm not sure actually cuz i didn't watch Globet of Fire and i don't like having holes in sequels like these.. anyway, i'm sure i will enjoy the girls' company.. :)

oh, and i really like this photo. haha. billy joe and Bono for The Saints Are Coming single :)

i'm working on it

2007-07-08T16:27:00.000+08:00

yay! i'm really happy today :) i got to buy two really good albums namely CCC's Here We Go and Jars Of Clay's Good Monsters YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!
hahahahaha. thanks to jermain man. if not i'd have missed out from this attirbutes GSS. totally LOVELY! :D HAHAHAHAHHAHA- i'm delightly overjoyed. buying cds for me is theraputic especially when it involves good music. :)))) my heart's still doing somersaults now.. and! a bigger highlight!!!!! jermain, kan and i saw PST KONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!
haha. at changi airport, when we were on our way back home from mac's. after seeing him, all three of us were like, oh-my-gosh-my-heart-is-like-beating-so-hard. Haha. so funny lah.. so nervous :) thank you God for letting me see pst Kong hahahahah. lols. wonderful ending to a day. haha! okay, this entry is like really loud.. i'm laughing and screaming all over ahahahahahahahahahahahAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH. haha, just to emphasise it again.. :))) okay, i'm off to finish my project, with these two cds, it's a double portion of blessings, i believe i can do well. hahahahahaha.

here we go good monsters hand in hand

2007-07-07T00:15:00.000+08:00

i just watched Transformers today and it really is SOOOOOOOOOOoooooooooo GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD!!!!! man, i can go on forever. i mean, everything just sort of slips perfectly into place. and the script is pretty funny if you ask me. boy, was the movie exciting or what? i love optimus :) i chose him because everybody else likes bumble-bee.. hahaha. it's one of my favourites now :) i can watch it all over again with no complains, unless that is, i have my projects and all.. priorities you know. ya. priorities..

here we go fast and slow on the big chair

2007-07-04T23:47:00.000+08:00

it's quite amazing how some people can be so insensitive and they don't even know it. a n y w a a a a a y s s . into term 2 and the beginning of a n o t h e r project, it's late nights and soya bean, which reminds me that i need to stock up. finally one down and two more only for OC to go. phew- the presentation was actually quite nerve wrecking. i'm definately not in ms lim's good book, with all the stares that she gave me today during lesson... AHHhhh. anyway i always somehow am at the losing end of things.. but i guess it doesn't really matter? it isn't that i don't care about exellence but i just really did my best and i'm still found at the losing end of things..whatever am i talking about!? oh, and i actually did sleep before 12 midnight. but i still also somehow did not manage to get the rest that i intended myself to have. my period came. it had me tossing and turning, waking up and going off again, up and down up and down. it also didn't help that the weather now is suuuuuuuuuuuppppeeeerrrrrrrrrrr hot and dry. man, i'm swimming in my perspiration at night. oh and tomorrow is thursday, and am informed just that we're combining with kan's. kan's playing praise!! woo-hoo. JIAYOU buddy!! hmmm and we'll all be able to witness her takamine's debut :) woo-hoo. i end at 5 it starts at 630.. and i have to brong my guitar and my violin? because kan is borrowing my violin for whatever reasons.. haha. no lah, her DTP project right? see! i know, i've been listening when you were talking... HAHAHAHA. ok, i should be getting back in creating my Spatial Story. Bah. see ya folks. oh and i took this photo last week after svc, it's summer, jermain and my shadow.. :) i like...

i'll never leave you, just need to be closer, closer.

2007-07-02T23:19:00.000+08:00

there're a couple of things i want to do. so here goes.

i want to thank all those who have encouraged me upon knowing my bloody red F thing. thanks a lot you guys, it really helped :))))))) love ya peeps!

i want to watch transformers, robots in disguise. hahahahahahaha. very cool you know.. :)) i waaaaaaaaaaaaant!

i'm thinking of cutting my hair short. hmmmm. longer hair seem to be easy and also tough to manage when you're stuck with my one of a kind hair behaviour.

i want to go shopping!!!!!!! i need to take advantage of this GSS! but then again, i have to get a replacement for my atm card..

which reminds me that i need to call the police station and tell them that i found my wallet.. i think i'll ask the mother to help me with that.. :) heh

and, probably the last thing, for now. proper sleep. i've been dreaming a lot, though not all of them are remembered, so technically if you're dreaming your mind is thinking too and i really need all the rest that i can get now, now :) so can i have a record breaking where i am going to bed before 12....? i'll let you know again.

oh, this is the last thing. kan ying hua, can you at least inform me next time? i waited for your reply and nothing at all came. thanks ah. i put you first. please hor..

hormones in place? ok let's go to bed.

blessed are those who put their trust in the Lord

2007-07-02T00:00:00.000+08:00

please let me know that i am sleeping. i got a really bloody red F for T1. this really is unfair. i wish i could say everything. but apparently i was wrong. i thought of everything but just did not pen it down. thanks a lot.

i'm awake and it hurts but i move on because this isn't the end. you'll see, because He's with me.

2007-06-30T01:10:00.000+08:00

didn't plan to update, but i thought i'd just go ahead with it. i should be like that more often, stop thinking so much about so many things.. hm. jermain revealing the faces during cg today was hmmmm to me. haha. it grounded me much more. because i wondered before if the move that i did long back was right, but cg just confirmed it so much more, together with the blessings and the growth that i have experienced since the big move. haha. i never really thought of how they functioned, but i just knew that they could bring me closer to God and that was all that i wanted. no need to complicate things. when times are uncertain and people are wandering wondering i choose to plunge and now i know i'm safe with You. thank You. ang zane, there's a message for you in there somewhere... :) but i guess you'll prob already know, cuz i'm meeting u tomorrow.. sian- haha. jk. i wanted to sleep in, but ang zane had to drag me out so early to the swee lee sale...

i'll stay under your umbrella

2007-06-29T00:24:00.000+08:00

school has only re-opened a few days back right? ahck, feels like forever already. so the scene repeats where i'm eating my dinner in the middle of the night again. this time, it's really nice, because i was Reeeeeaaaaalllly hungry, and dinner's cheese macoroni and loads brocolli family veggetables. got back from pm and it was alright. but jermain's really excited about something, and we're only going to know tomorrow..... and we're also celebrating foolixian's birthday tomorrow, woo-hoo! i love events. (p.s the woo-hoo really sounds so havi-ish. ahck. haha.) Speaking of which she, esther and fiona, went crazy flooding my tagboard with thier confessions of one another. like nothing better to do eh? hahahahaha. but it perks my life up, so go on..... heh. got a scolding from mom for not telling her the truth. and i wonder why i bother to hide anyway.... but now i know better, the truth will set me free :) oh! and i saw banya yesterday at funan IT mall. SO FUN!!!! haha. always with that thailand smile of his. haha. i love his accent, do your autocad ah..... he has his ways.. so that's is basically all, i'm still deciding whether i should turn up for school tomorrow.. i want to finish Scoop ;P
gnight world.

i'm found

2007-06-24T17:22:00.000+08:00

i changed my url because.. i wanted to. haha- anyway. today is sunday, the second sister just came back from tioman, and you know what. i just remembered that i was suppose to clean the kitties' litter but i didn't. hoho, don't think she found out.. thank god. :) though it is my irresponsibility...

just sorta came back from IMM, had to accompany the mother to change something, and i ended up with new pants from giodarno, new thumbdrive from giant and new pair of sandles from some-shop-in-IMM. yay! so fun. haha. and i had a really nice meal at ajisen for lunch. which i shall elaborate. the mother ordered crayfish ramen, the big sister had veggetable ramen(what else could you expect from her right? hahahaha), and i settled for black pepper beef ramen set meal. the mother's was nice, though the crayfish wasn't fresh. the big sister's plain, i mean, what can you expect out from just veggetables? yck. haha, but it was alright :) now my dish. -thunder strikes and you see lightning- there wasn't any black pepper taste in the beef but much more of butter. the soup was overpowering and way too salty, i feel so sorry for my kidney :/ and the side dish that came with the set meal? way too much flour you wonder if you're eating flour or the meat inside. but overall i guess it was alright? i still enjoyed the meal though :) thanks to big sister. oh and the wasabei wasn't rushing to the nose type.. i was wondering if it's authetic. but big sister said that she read somewhere that real authetic wasabei aren't suppose to be rushing to the nose. but really to me, it tasted like some bean paste.. oh well, you learn something new everyday. i'm just really grateful that i was able to fill my stomach with nice ramen.

oh, and school's starting on monday, i hope i don't oversleep and turn up for cadp on time... haha. and! i want to get OC over and done with ASAP! so.. group members... heh.

i'm gonna dance dance dance, dance dance on this freedom that lasts forever

2007-06-17T23:20:00.000+08:00

i turned mr larry on with the idea of doing research for OC pre 1 presentation : The Different Interior Design. But somehow i got sidetracked like i always do so i'm here. Went for today's svc as well, was suppose to meet up cecilia, bing zhong, kok meng and havi but, none turned up so i was alone. And i realised that this week's attn was only me. i'm suppose to have a cluster attn but how did it turn out like that? bj's in malaysia now i reckon.. what's going on.....? moving on, i'm glad i went for today's svc :) it's a step in coming back.. if i was who i was last time, i would have just went back home again.. i'm glad i moved on from there. i'll keep progressing :) everybody should. i will.

celebrated sc's birthday on saterday. boy it was fun! lovely :D think we're the firsts to celebrated somebody's birthday before svc started :) it feels good to be the first.. sometimes.. hurhur- presented her the cheaper set of birthday cake and present, afterwhich we chased her down after svc to give her the real set of birthday blessings.. hoho- it was fun running after her, which most of us reached before she did.. the surprise came off a bit i don't know, nice and not nice? haha. it was good anyways. it's nice to see her so happy :) then there was quite a scare when ruihua got missing.... ahhhh... but she was found in the end, thank God. If not, i don't think anybody would have gone home and sleep well.. what a way to end it :) haha.

oh and i'm meeting havi and fiona i suppose tomorrow to finish up some hols assignments.. which i still have no idea what time we are meeting.. oh well.

and a shout out to ang.. be happy :)

and i did mentioned that kan and i talked loads on friday night yeah? i'd just like to dot it out for my own sake, i believe everything thatyou do can be fruitful when you make an effort.. okay, i have no idea how that makes sense in this context but whatever you know. haha. i'm reviewing lah.

how did we start again? i know we talked about cg, mbrs and us as individuals :) i find joy in these.. coming clean with the emotions and feelings and uncertainty. coming clean... but the most important thing was that we moved on from this shredding, some of us don't and i don't get it. i mean i do, i know.. how it feels, but isn't the urge to breakfree stronger? i don't know if my heart loves you, i'm sure i do but i'm unsure if it's big enough for your plans to fall through or even if it is in the right place. i want people to see you i want them to feel you to know you because you're great, because you're wonderful, just awestrucken inexplicictly great. because i also know it is your desire so it is mine. not because people tell me but i know it is yours.

I try to say goodbye and I choke
try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not near
Goodbye and I choke
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not near
I try Macy Gray

Somehow everything's gonna fall right into place
If we only had a way to make it all fall faster everyday
If only time flew like a dove
Well God, make it fly faster than I'm falling in love

This time we're not giving up
Let's make it last forever
Screaming "hallelujah"
We'll make it last forever

Holding onto patience wearing thin
I can't force these eyes to see the end
If only time flew like a dove
We could watch it fly and just keep looking up

This time we're not giving up
Let's make it last forever
Screaming "hallelujah"
We'll make it last forever

And we've got time on our hands
(We've got time) Got nothing but time on our hands
Got nothing but, got nothing but
(We've got time) Got nothing but time on our hands

This time we're not giving up
Oh, let's make it last forever
Screaming "hallelujah" (hallelujah)
Hallelujah
Hallelujah Paramore

2007-06-16T00:11:00.000+08:00

i did not realise how hungry i was until i ate a mouth of my dinner, mr stomach began grumbling for more. never drink coffee on an empty stomach, that what i learnt. so here i am, eating and updating in the middle of the night. had fun today with my family tree. went down to town and shopped, myself kan and especially ang zane! :) haha, he seriously can look so much better if he dresses well. ang ah! :D after that ang went for planetshakers' concert at expo and kan and i jsut walked around more.. we were decided or rather i was deciding whether to buy the shiny cap or not at heeren's fourskin.. debated, weighed the pros and cons, the regret level after purchase and longiveity of it blah- we then unknowingly setteled at a standing position and started talking. :) a lot of realisation and whatever u know.. i have no idea how to put what we have talked into words, but i'd have to say that it was good. :) not in a good good way but good.. aiyah. after which my decision was set, i bought the shiny cap from heeren's fourskin. :) afterthat we settled again at suntec's starbucks. :) lovely place, should go there. drank coffee wor.. not bad at all afterall.. haha. slacked and chilled in silence, it was nice. after that was the journey back home on 171 then 157. jeex, my bum hurts now.. i should sleep.. coffee does not help at all.. makes me sleepier.. if there is such a word. ta world.

2007-06-14T00:52:00.000+08:00

my playlist is getting longer, but currently: paramore, the fray and relient k

wanted to post up pictures of family united, but decided against it. i've a lot to think about. ended the cc with bj and wrote something.... well.

had a good day with two of my favourite people on earth. :D though i think they're disagree.. haha. i probably spent most of my time with them tanning myself, eating and watching tv.. sorry guys xD, can't blame me luh first time having cable! CSI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lovely series. if only they had cold case too.. everything jerry bruckhaimer? haha. whatever how u spell his firstname. kan baked salty cookies, HAHA. but they're nice nonetheless :) ang zane as usual, promoting another ballad singing singer or gays......... hahaha- i love this two people. we're meeting again on friday right!!!??!? KAN! u better move that thing that's between yr waist and yr forever growing long legs. HAHAHAHAHA.

what does this mean
mountain tops and valleys
mr muse wakes up and i'm caught

2007-06-09T20:07:00.000+08:00

i'm attending sunday svc this week, why? Because i had CIP today and the resultof it is that i've got two markings on my right arm. i got burnt!!!! i'm chao ta now.. :/ there's a marking where my watch laid and another where my t-shirt sleeve laid.. haiyo- so ugly can, but my ma says it's fade off.. i sure do hope so.. another bad thing happened today, i think i lost my purse. WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!!!! i hve my posb, ic and 15 dollars meant to pay for my SD shirt... :'((( and i also almost lost my handphone.. thank goodness one of the organisers found it.. ;'(( i hope somebody else finds my purse and contact me.. or shld i go back tomorrow to vivo to search for joycelyn? maybe i'll do that.. i really hope it's out there somewhere..

2007-06-08T00:33:00.000+08:00

i've lost my sense of dates again, i'm eating dinner in the middle of the night again, i'm having the cough and flu again too. my mucus just dripped.. hahaha!! disgusting right? oh well. :) well, this week has been really crazy. SO MANY assignments to submit, and 90% of it are either late or incomplete.. :( i learnt my lesson God, please help me to pass term1 :/ and there's crit session tomorrow!!? omg-ness.

today was really crazy. busy rushing here and there and everywhere and everywhere. trying to finish assignments from week 1-7. it was totally exhausting! i don't think i can express my fatigue into words, and we had cg today which did not turn out well... i broke 3 strings!?!!??!!! goodness.. and i was also late.. i'm sorry god, sorry to bj also.. but the sermon was good. :) bj just somehow ah, always manage to turn sermons more interesting.. haha. it's good, i'm really thankful.. if not i think i'd have stoned off and turned into a statue. oh, and as for my results? i don't want to sound negative, but i don't think the outcome will be that positive.

emerge seem so far away now.. :( it had been a really fun ride. the picture taken with Pst Kong was just unbelievable.. it's Pst Kong!!! oh goodness, i never thought i'd be so close to him.. and also Pst CK and s.Evelyn.. omg-ness! they look so perfect lah.. my pastors, i love them all so much. so many things that have happened in just a few days. imagine when you begin to bring the fire and let it saturate your lifestyle.. goodness! life is going to one helleva ride.. to put it as expressionally as i can.. :)

changes in life are constant, just bring me along and don't leave me behind.
we could all wish this away but it wouldn't be life anymore.

there's so much more i want to say but my body can hardly take it anymore.. and i still don't know what time are we suppose to be in school tomorrow.. thank God for ministry, it has totally prepared for poly school like.

thank you for all the love. i love you, what would i do without you?

2007-06-07T00:18:00.000+08:00

i'm not suppose to be blogging because my term1 exam is just a few hours away, i should be piang-ing away but i'm here updating typing with only one hand, the other holding a fork that holds my drumstick. i shouldn't have bought the nasi lemak from je's pasar malam, but i thought i would be hungry and from experience, the refridgerator would hold nothing edible.. but there was lettuce tonight.. haven't been eating much of my greens portion these days, i've been staying out you see. i was rushing the group's lighting appratus. reaching home at 10/11 to only start work at 12+. i seriously hope that i do not fail any of my modules. i'm having my exams guys! please help me with attn can!? (then again, judging from experience, they'll only read about it way after, or even not at all, and i sometimes wonder why i even blog at all, nobody's reading it, so i'm actually doing it for myself. hm.) alright i've just decided to abandon my nasi lemak, my very late dinner for 060607, you do realise it's 070707 already ya? cool, submission day has such a nice date. oh and did i mention that i have nothing completed that is due for submission? nice eh. oh and there's cg. songsheet yet to be done. songs yet to be practiced. wow, life's exciting huh? hahaha. where are you hols? okay okay, i better go now. like now. yeah now. :) alright. hello dark eye rings!

all for love

2007-05-30T22:20:00.000+08:00

nobody else tags me.. :( so sad. maybe i shall not blog anymore.. but it's addictive hor.. we'll see.

2007-05-27T22:02:00.000+08:00

i'm contemplating of changing my blogskin.. hm. but i also really like my current one.. kan!!?? :) anyhoots, school's re-opening in a few hours and.. i hope i've had most of the assignments completed. speaking of school, EMERGE!!!!! is coming. this week! and we received the band yesterday! that's like one of the perks of emerge. ohh- i didn't submit my shoe for the compeition, because i really had NOOOOOOOOOOOOoooooooo time! i wanted to submit and old pair that i painted a loooong time ago, but it received bad press, haha so i lunged it to church, to rayshaun's first month chalet, into the taxi and back home again.. what a journey it had. haha. ohh- and Did You Know, everytime i wore those shoes, it rains.... lols, fortunately thi.. ohmygosh, it's ugly betty now. slong!

2007-05-26T01:17:00.000+08:00

sorta just reached home from pos preview at expo. it was good :) i'm really proud of my member!! done so well! :DDD i feel their anxiety and adrenaline. i don't want it to just pass me by. i want it to overwhelm me like never before, consume me and leave nothing behind. i want more!!!

consume me and leave nothing behind.

2007-05-24T23:07:00.000+08:00

today's cg was enriching. power man! i thank guyabove for putting great leaders into my life. yayness, to put my emotion into words. i shared a testimony of how HS helped me in my clutter of mess. :) it was really great for me because i really wasn't feeling well before cg. i had the sore throat and it sort of got into my head. mr brain-head was heavy and slightly feverish, goodness, i couldn't even stand up without seeing my world in mini black dots and in hues of grey and green, thank god He held me up. i think it's because i use too much of larry. i heard from somewhere that when you use too much of computers, their radiation get to you and you get headaches... hmmm.. i can't seem to think straight.. a n y h o w h o o t s.

cg was really good for me. p and w was quite shiong actually, especially praise. my left hand fingers are still sore while i'm typing here. shoosh- so many things to digest. but one that really *dinged* on me was the part that, you everything in your life unto guyabove. :) actually truth to be said, i missed all these attitudes that i use to have when i was starting out. quite a shame to say it now though. but i believe it's only going to get better. :) my god is one of all possibilities!!

the week is ending so soon! and what have i completed? nothing much. okay, i'm really excited cause ch5's showing law and oder speacial victim unit!!

i'm believe we'll make it through together. :))

2007-05-24T14:51:00.000+08:00

thursday = cgm. thursday = only one more day to chiong the leftover project assignments. and it doesn't help that i'm sore on the throat. boo. i think my femme periods are coming. we've multiplied! it's official! never really thought this day would really come.. but this week's cg attn is atrocious. can't stand it but where am i going to find 10 more people? oh goodness! and it doesn't help when foolilin always not by her phone... :/
our base is 15 our base is 15 our base is 15 our base is 15 our base is 15!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i can do better than this.

2007-05-20T10:42:00.000+08:00

i had to tell this. after svc yesterday we were fellowshipping around and everywhere walking here and there and everywhere talking to everybody and whoever.. then! as we were about to leave, i turned back and i saw a sea of brothers.. WHOA- i'm really quite amazed.. i never really thought about the realism of it.. i'm determined to see it come to pass!!! i wAAAAAAAAAAAAnt it to come to PAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAS! it's going to be great. 300, 10 000 i get it. :) but of course with that comes with it another level of discipleship and attitude and everything. i'm going to start doing things together with you god. :D women who give birth to real men.

though i have to admit that the separation is going to be really hard, i'll focus on the bigger picture, i have to right? god please try and make it easier for them..

you seem to have much concern for other things, i see you slipping downstream, but don't. there's no more energy in your voice, be strong nonetheless, headstrong. don't let your emotions rule you please.

2007-05-19T13:37:00.000+08:00

You Are 35% Normal

You sure do march to your own beat...But you're so weird, people wonder if it's a beat at allYou think on a totally different wavelengthAnd it's often a chore to get people to understand you

kan ying hua says that it's quite true so i want to post it here for more people to determine...
hm.

2007-05-19T13:17:00.000+08:00

You Are An INFJ

The Protector
You live your life with integrity, originality, vision, and creativity.Independent and stubborn, you rarely stray from your vision - no matter what it is.You are an excellent listener, with almost infinite patience.You have complex, deep feelings, and you take great care to express them.
You would make a great photographer, alternative medicine guru, or teacher.

What's" Your Personality Type?

hm- i wonder how true that is. bah.

2007-05-18T21:48:00.000+08:00

on repeat: wonderwall, oasis. hey you, madonna.

kan posted an unsuitable photo of me!!!!!!!! i have to have a counter, so i shall post some of my nicer ones.. :) haha. taken when we had our DID course outing at parkmall showrooms.. these few people make school seems a brighter place :) i love it!

esther, havi and meeee!

havi, meeeee, fiona and esther

fiona, havi, esther and meeeee

it rained heavy heaps when we ended our little walk-around. but in the end it was fine, the day was well. it was cg day also so i went over earlier and we had a really fun time! haha! we played balloons.. did i say that in the previous entry? doesn't matter i love my friends. oh and we're having e-learning week next week, that means no school!! but i still have to go to school for project. oh god please bless the process!

ok, i thought i lost this entry but apperently, blogger became smarter and it saves my drafts.. how cool is that. thanks yall.

2007-05-18T01:21:00.000+08:00

Haven't been doing my share of household chores lately.. thankfully by His grace, not much scoldings.. haha, will do them later.. i won't take it for granted.
i really feel like i'm always living one day in advance.. can't seem to keep my dates in place, but in a way it is also good, because you plan ahead. a n y h o w s. sem 1 project really gets me jittery. we have to build the lighting!!!??! oh gosh. god please give me all the strength and wisdom and inspiration in the world to make it happen and let it be fabulous to gorify your naaaaaaaaaaaaammmmmmmmeeeeeeeeeee!!!!! today was cg day, we had a really fun time, tiring for me also.. something really funny stuck out.
jermain: yuen leng, don't scream. and lijia, don't shout.
HAHAHAHAHA- so funny can! well, at least to me lah. :) lol. our match didn't go anywhere in the end.. haha.. malcom was the final winner though, and i can proudly say that he was in my group!!! haha! good! :) heh.
something else while on the way back home. i'm very crazy hor. really ah? haha. so stupid right.. late nights craze my mind lah.
school is really ..... it's fun lah. always talking about the lecs as if they're celebs. haha. what they wearing blah. design student mah, must observe. that'll be how a SD student would defend.
movie 300 is really super. :) i get it.

300, 10 000
women who give birth to real men

2007-05-16T00:05:00.000+08:00

i'm eating dinner in the middle of the night again.. doesn't matter much to me though, me night creature. HS told me to go back home but i didn't... just thought you know.. well that resulted in a shake of mommy's head.. sry.. went for a pm at riverwalk mah.. haha, i know, it's my fault lah. but it was good nonetheless it would be better if i wasn't feeling so sleepy... ;/ i need to enLARGE my capacity. can you imagine!? next week's e-learning! no school! i... i wanted to do something, but i won't because i already lifted it up to guyabove and i trust that it'll all work out. so good to be a christian. haha. today's pm at riverwalk was... .. it's so simple!!?! i mean it's pretty wow, i fall in the category where i complicate things too much.. the thing about bs hit me.. don't need so much of whatever flowery language say it from your heart. they'll feel it, love never fails.. Jesus knew of the disciples weakness and inadequency but He asked them to follow Him anyway.. Jesus knew..
this is really the expose of my thoughts, all jumbled together with no paragraphs.. faraway i hear ms tan from swiss saying, haiyo... though english teacher she may be but the fact remains that she's singaporean, hahahaha. okay, my eye lids weigh like stones now, i need to get in bed soon.
oh- i saw something today in pm.. it's the part where, like pst mentioned, when you hear a voice and you wonder if it's yours or God's. Pst said that no matter who said it as long as it's good then it's a good voice. haha. so i'm just going to say what i saw, regardless of whatsoever.
i saw a pair of feet entering when pst mentioned that God's presence is coming.. :)

i love the pictures you paint in my mind..
keep them coming, i'm your canvas.

2007-05-11T22:51:00.000+08:00

ma thinks i bought sun's album because she's pastor's wife. that's what most people who don't know who really is thinks. that's sad, because they judge on what they see, funny how they don't see the heart? anyways, jermain is coming back soon..cg gonna split very soon..but it's really funny how it comes.. and i really need to improve my guitar skills!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! alamak.. compared to last cgm.. i'm at ground zero lah! hahahahaha- and i really didn't know clarissa can draw so super duper uber well!!!!!!???? crazy lah that girl... draw so nice for what huh!!!!??? haha. oh and i bought my journal today.. so nice luh the cover.. disco somemore.. haha.

it's so easy to leave it aside, to forget about it and 'live' for a while but then you come to realise that you weren't meant to do it alone.

i've burn my bridges and find my tear stained face in your embrace it's a wonder now that i'm with you and you're holding my hand Lord..

funny ar- when you realise the simplicity that He wants is so simple, only.

2007-05-06T20:52:00.000+08:00

Larry's burning up and i need to get started on final monday model again.. Gosh- it can be so tiring. But, i believe i'll get through it by and by. Finally home wireless is working! so while i'm updating here, the rest of the family is watching recorded without a trace, lovely series. a n y h o w s - this week that's passing... it has been a-lot-on-my-mind. so much that's going on the inside i can't recall. another week and i know with guy above with me, i'm gonna be ok, everything's gonna be alright i believe in him and myself. funny, cuz i realise that i didn't/don't believe in myself. like, it's all about him, i mean it IS all about him but i guess i didn't fully understood the whole meaning of partnership. i'm going to be like jacob, leaning on guy above always.

let's start doing things together

2007-05-04T23:20:00.000+08:00

why do you always just let it go like that? don't be so weak! just stand up against the pressure, you're stronger than this, life's more than just conquering your fears. my heart aches at what you're going through because i've been there and (frankly) it stinks. u need to face it. stand up and move! don't let yourself down.
you're more than this.

grow baby grow

2007-05-03T20:13:00.000+08:00

design is no easy task. today's TOD covered on imaginative thinking. serene got us on an exercise. we're to feel our partner's face with our eyes closed, and drawing it out at the same time. not easy, esther's face was distorted on my paper. ha ha. it thought us coordination of our feelings with our senses. then she had us write out a adjective and do a bubble diagram on it. hard was mine. it got me thinking. you had to be out of the box yet within the boundaries. so i ended up with: musical notes/conscience/people/feelings; anger/bones. would you agree? design is fun.

had a really good time with kan yesterday at al-azah :) heart to heart. it's good :)

i need new shoes.. mr checkered has holes that miss shy shoelace is coming out. ha ha.

ok, mr larry's batteries is running out.

let the weak say i am strong.

2007-04-26T01:23:00.000+08:00

it's only been the second week of school and it's about to end already!!??! Lectures and tuorials have started and so far so good, meaning i haven't fallen asleep in any of them yet.. haha. we're into day 08, two more days and officially E V E R Y T H I N G starts, aaaaaahhhhhhh- Can't imagine, wait actually i can. Picture 2-3 hrs of lecs amd tus everyday, you'll get my days to come. hmm, and it's not a very good thing when the lecs remember your name, haha, because then you'll kena all the questions.. hohoho.

Class 01's fine, we'll all have to learn how to get along.. :)

i'm getting bored of clarke quey, seems like i'm fated to be there uh.. group off-site assignment also there, and i spent almost half of the day there. and it seems to always rain whenever i'm there.. funny uh..

i'm beginning to understand how it is to love. Itis a process where you and i grow together, a time of ears and heart, a place we can build upon. It's Your love that showed me how.

come close to me, too close for words and still my beating heart.

2007-04-19T23:43:00.001+08:00

it's the fourth day since school started and it has been a ride. 10 days to become a designer. that's the orientation title of DID. we painted our faces on the first, built an installation on the second, drew buildings on third and we came up with our own collection today. it'll be our first fashion runway tomorrow! gosh. thank GOD!! im not one of the models.. we have to parade around the campus you know.. and how has it been a ride? (gosh, it's only the first week of school..) not to boast or anything, but i had to come up with everything!? from ideas to execution to presentation to details to EVERYTHING! but i too have to add that without my group members, i would not have accomplished anything. THANK GOD too! i'd be gone by now if it weren't for Him. THANKS to kanyinghua too, for i've been complaining to her about certain things.. haha. it's quite a wonder she's still sticking around.. hahahahaha. anyhoots, we had cg today and it, i'd have to say was good! HS shocked me and boy what a feeling it was. i can still remember it. and it was even before cg started.. only practising the songs leh, then He came, oh, i needed that so much. transitions after transitions. changes that only can make us stronger. oh and did i mention i was late for half an hour on the first day of school? jeex. and did i mention also that jennifertaysinee and i caused quite a traffic jam at the sports hall walkway on the second day of school? it's crazy. we're having the runway at 1030 tomorrow! i hope that all things go well, no free shows please. hurhur. oh ya, i'm getting larry tomorrow! :) meeting andzanewenxuan also, wonder how his debate went... i can't believe it's thurs already. technically, it's friday already. saturday will be good. :)

i can do it. it can only get better. with you around i have nothing to fear.

benny hinn and realisations

2007-04-15T23:22:00.000+08:00

i'm convinced of who you have called me to be and i am determined to follow through. it can only get better.

these two day with benny hinn has made me realise a lot of things, or should i put it as remembered? the innocence, the hunger and the absolute promise that it will come to pass. i had expected more though. but i know that i'm blessed no matter what and that it can only get better.

school's starting in a few more hours and i'm feeling craven-ish. hah. but i can't, so i don't. i do believe that all's going to go well. i can't wait til i get home and spent real good time with guy above.

it's a wonder you still want me back after all..
it can only get better.

2007-04-13T20:50:00.000+08:00

on repeat: there you are standing right in front of me-

i'm in LOVE!!

ok, back to earth, you know the kind of fear that grips when you know haven't done something you know you should have done but didn't.. yeah- that. and the only way to overcome is facing it. ahh...

oh, and i finally got my timetable :) and it seems pretty good to me. starting school at 10am on mon, tues and thurs... OH! but i end at 5pm on thurs.. dang. i'll make time. wed and fri-days start at 8am.. and i end at 1pm on fri!! woot woot.
alrighty people. BENNY HINN IS HERE!!!! my goodness. i never really dreamt that he would come to singapore.. it's on par with u2 coming, but then again, u2 never came.. so. i'm looking FOR FOR FOR WARD!

sweep me off my feet, you're the one i know.

thoughts n feelings

2007-04-12T20:05:00.000+08:00

haven't touched them internet for quite a while, always like that huh? anyhows. easter came and it was too much of journey to inscribe into words. battles lost and won is what i can leave you. school reopens in a few more days and i barely have anything done. heh. blame it on the lazy streak in me that is rather big. har- they say i can only get larry next friday, so i'll have to survive the first week of school without my technical bf. haha. on a lighter note, i'm quitting soon! two more days and cbtl is bygones. i've come to love the randomness of my co-workers, the diversity in the customers that come everyday, the realiasation that the management isn't that great.. haw- what kept me working was to see the fulfillment of a&b, now that it's done, i can breathe a little more freely. then it got me thinking. what keeps me breathing in this world? what keeps you? (corrinne may makes me think. haha-)

im running low, give me strength that i may tarry.

2007-04-08T18:48:00.000+08:00

ah. i'm tired of updates. we'll see. :)

2007-04-03T00:19:00.000+08:00

i'm updating a lot today. im having a lot going on in this brain heart of mine. bottom line, i'm never gonna be able to sleep(rest) until easter is over. but easter's never going to be over.

it's the rush that keeps me alive.

2007-04-02T22:22:00.000+08:00

emotion: -what am i to say in a time like this?-

2007-04-02T11:26:00.000+08:00

there's nothing much to talk about actually. i just have to do it.

2007-03-29T00:15:00.000+08:00

On repeat: Kyo; Revolutions

haven't been online for quite a while. been busy, ier. working. getting down to school. fretting. working. jeex. i can't wait til i stop working, seriously. can't stay in one place for too long, especially when you do the same things over and over again. Boring! ok, i just received a call from a taxi driver. apprently, one of us(in the family) left the cell phone in a taxi and the uncle so nice to realise and call back. i think it was 2nd sis's. oh well, funny she doesn't realise. anyway, the uncle so smart leh, i guess it's pretty common sense too. he searched for home and dialed it. but how come nobody mentioned it uh.... funny leh.. anyhoots, it's pretty much settled.

i thought it was fujitsu, then it was acer, now, it'll most probably be an ibook! but hey, i ain't complaining dude! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA- i'm gonna call my lappy larry. sounds kinda coolcute. haw- would be scurrying around town tomorrow for information. watched debbie travis's facelift today. cool stuff they're doing. interior desgin show. next was extreme makeover home edition, interior design stuff again. cool stuff they're doing. but you know just not really what i really wanted. i wanted to do graphic you know. adverts and all. i guess i could get a degree in that. anyhoots, i still need to get through DID, and i'm choosing to go through it with a good attitude, cuz with it only comes SUCCESS!!!!!!

i know i'm gonna pull through cause Your word speaks LOUDER.

2007-03-14T22:20:00.000+08:00

I LOVE BS!!!!!!!!!!

gosh- how can you not? it refreshes your body soul and spirit, which is thoughly needed in times of enrolment into SP. the forms are flooding my breathing space. went inside church office for the very first time, and boy was it... empty. -haha- i suppose most of them are on the mission field. so quiet too-- there's a lot to be done, a lot of intercession to be made. but i love it all the same. did i mention i love peach tea? -hohoho- work is starting to take it's toil :( don't feel like working anymore.. probably because motivation is gone, because i know i can finish my a&b in time! -heh- had a IB test the other day and i failed flat- -hawhaw- i'll be gone soon anyway. now now, where's the excellent spirit? ok.. :) i love you HS! i seriously think i should treat God better -haha- what a way to put it. still, i made my point, now the motion is to make it across and known.

praise is a garment that you choose to put on, likewise for worship it is an attitude of heart whether you trust Him with your weariness or not. I LOVE YOU GOD!

2007-03-14T00:10:00.000+08:00

arigh.
i want to scream at somebody.

seriously being a serious christian in church can make you grow SO much. just within a few months, you're like a few years older when you engage with people who aren't in church and you're like, i've seen that.

i still feel like screaming at somebody.

music is serious business.

i still feel like screaming at somebody.

2007-03-08T00:56:00.000+08:00

they say life's a roller coaster and i couldn't have agreed more. today was particularly explosive. but i'm not backing down; just to lay the foundations of this explainary relaying of events.

the results, interior design, i'd thought it to be fine, but after what my mom said. BAM- my optimism ducked to zero, and clarity never seemed to be there in the first place. on the way home, i was tired. i didn't do the tasks that i was suppose to and you know sometimes when you're tired, the emotions of failures just seems bigger than they are. and, it didn't leave me feeling good.

it was up and down and up and down and up and down and i wonder where i'm standing. even if it isn't good i just hope i can be steady for a while.

i'm stronger than this.

2007-03-07T00:57:00.000+08:00

i'm eating dinner at 12midnight. how cool is that? hah- had a really fun ride home with Sam Qi Hui today -HAHAHAHA- not forgetting seeing JJ's funny faces..-(double)HAHAHAHA- speaking of which, this expo PM wasn't really stretching, BUT! whoa- the prayer for pst steven's dad!! boy oh boy was that STRONG!! man, guess that's the second earthquake for today. except that one was felt in the natural, the other in the supernatural.. speaking of the natural one.. i felt the tremours, and i thought it was my overreacting heartbeat that shook me. -hahahaha- anyways, PMs are always good for the soul. i should be getting to bed really also. tmr's another day of work and BS!! -whee- missed one due to work -boo- goodnight morning. -hahahahaha- must be the PM.. making me all laughy.. -hahahahaha-

i remember you.

2007-03-06T14:00:00.000+08:00

you have been posted to singapore polytechnic interior design..... now that is stuck to me. how can i describe that moment? nothing actually. i guess i should feel possible, i don't say lucky because i don't believe in coincidence?. now, the next step probably is.. should i appeal? or just remain. then, when am i starting or whatever stuff..

randomness of events that stuck out

2007-03-01T15:30:00.000+08:00

i said something while chatting on msn to kan yesterday; 'learning like time is constant' it struck me, not sure about the other side -hoho-. i was wondering, how come i can suddenly say something like that, philosophical well. -hmmmm- i've been busy i suppose(?), seems like a rush of events and we're at the weekends again. and at this point of time, i'm wondering, what have i been busy with? one thing's for sure, i'm reviving a part of my world that i like to retreat into. -ahh- the world of books, art and writing. :) what were you thinking? anyway, that's yesterday.

something else hit me today; dan10:12. when you set your heart to understand... i can't fully explain, but it stuck out.

then just just now, the word whimsical appered in my mind. erratic; unpredictable was the defination. and it just made me wonder, these events that stuck out, these randomness.. -ahhhhhhh- whatever.

outreach;

-reaching out to you, where will you lead me by the hand you guide me onto this path-

2007-02-26T23:25:00.000+08:00

the stay at malaysia was a good one: shopping, food and sleep. wonderful things that i cannot seem to find in singapore.. anyhow, the food was fantastic! to upload them up at this point in time would take centuries. so i'll just show you my favourites. :) in malaysia meant quality time spent with my family, even though we might not talk, but the presence is enough for me. because in singapore, everybody's always busy; hard not to be. anyhoots.

the first dinner out.

first day of CNY, we agreed the colour red for this year's theme, next year's the white and gold..

the usual bai nian destination.

last night dinner with malaysia relatives

reunion dinner with singapore relatives..

I LOVE MY FAMILY!!!!!!!!!

synopsis

2007-02-13T19:51:00.000+08:00

i've been trying to update, honestly, but mr PC just wouldn't relent. in a few days i'll find myself upon the soil of malaysia so, don't miss me too much! :)) a cluster of events have happened which had which had me holding my breath for too long, it tired me. the results; a moment that passed so quickly, 5 years gone just like that. past efforts future unknowns all in one day. the outcome is pretty alright i guess.. only heaven knows- the marathon of faith; ongoing, never a moment of rest is allowed, it's too risky... but in Your presence i am renewed. does my weaknesses and falls mean i have to start at square one again? why does it feel so if it isn't? doesn't matter- i'm picking myself up. writings; random nothing specific nothing significant. future; addition of incubus prob switchfoot and jars of clay too. fulfilment of a&b!!!! (wahahahaha- friggin estatic about that :)))) what else? oh yeah- i made a discovery about myself. i'm a very emotional person.. (wah.......) hahahahaha- nothing negative when i made that discovery :)

2007-01-29T12:08:00.000+08:00

woke up today feeling rather disorientated. i have no idea of my work schedule which makes me nervous.. got scolded yesterday because i was late. oh. and had to suffer under lee mei's explosive mood. i really forgot i had work. it was a last minute thing, and it just didn't register. well, i can only blame myself though. another thing. i'm having a test on wed!? geez. what's that about? haven't had tests or anything in a looooooong time. and i wonder how i'm going to adjust to poly life after being out of school for such a looooooooong time. but i'm excited about my pay.. wahahaha- worked much with long hours in jan. so i hope i'm able to fulfil my a&b sooner and focus on improving my other statures. oh, God provide! :)) anyhows. i'll be calling them up soon.

waking up today led to indescriable feelings too. how do you explain this? not much words. just feelings. somehow the ending of this is the beginning of another story. another sail on the waters. walking or drowning, it's going to be part of the journey. man. this is just indescriable. i need to divert my attention before i faint from irregular heartbeats. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

anyhoots. the 2nd sister came home the other night with loot that led me into envy. haha- it's part of the sacrificial faith commitment testing! which reminded me of my 1st BS giving. waseh- i don't know what to say of it too. but i do feel that some words that were spoken weren't of my own intending but the Guy Up There. which is really cool . i haven't really been expriencing that, for quite some time. hopefully i'd be able to stock up for poly life soon. :))) the 2nd sister also has stash on Prison Break!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 'cept that i still can't find it anywhere.

ok, so this entry is going to be long. :) The dance floor is alright. though not as good as SYTYCD (waseh- so long. hah!) but i go to say. comparingly, most dancers on TDF have no or little dancing background. as in most of em are underground dancers who just love to do what they do. they undergo their own training whom thier intstrutor is thier own passion while on SYTYCD, most of them have professional training with addition of passion and drive, they have the upper hand in this comparison. nonetheless kudos for TDF. daphane khoo's in it. aaaaaaaaaaahhhhh- haha. not that i have anything against her but it's just you know. she's from SI then now she's on TDF... oh well.

i better be making that phone call soon.. or else i'll forget and risk myself another scolding.. yikes!

your graciousness leave me with no words i'm speechless as i stand before you it overwhelms my soul..

2007-01-22T18:33:00.000+08:00

hoots! it has been quite a while. many things have happened, though i don't remember much, just that a lot of adjustments. adjusting to GWC has been smooth, fun too. crazy weiling, chatty janice, 'handsome' qi yan.. and the list goes one..:) the first cg of the year was good i guess. you know how sometimes the standards you set for yourself don't qualify enough? (okay, where did that come from?) anyhoots, it was good for moi. had a Terrible morning though. mensuration period cramps are toally not a bore, they just give you more reasons why not to be a woman. anyhoots, Thank God He saved me, and strengthen me for cg, or i would have dieded. psheesh. anyway. i haven't been accountable lately. and i still dare to say it right? ah- the neighbour's musical taste is driving me nuts. so, i need to get going and be accountable. your turn NA(aaaaa)d--

can i now stand forever lost in your love?

2007-01-08T23:13:00.000+08:00

well, it's confirmed, i'm transfered to GWC outlet. reluctant, but if it offers me more days then why not, yet it seems to appear so. "we'll call you again.." no, i don't want that.. i need the money!!! gosh. anyway, the outlet seems pretty deserted if you ask me, or at least at the time i was there, but compared to CP, it really is worse. not adding to their favour when the squares at GWC is MUCH more than CP. still, it's done. JUST CALL ME ASAP!!!!!!!!!! just give me all the night shifts lah. haiyah-

the chalet days have been great ((: staying up late waking up late. haa- not forgetting the tipsy moments. but nobody can stay at chalet forever. going to chalet feels like escaping the work world and going into 'paradise' for a moment. we were meant for work. i'm not going to update much on it, how do you expect me to squeeze 3 days and 2 nights in such a small space? (ok, so maybe i'm lazy, still, you don't get the update, haha:-) ) check out the link instead for the photos. they speak more words than words do right?

i thought i was on the journey upwards , but i was falling uphill. still, that's not the end. i may be crawling, i stumbled but at least i'm back. up.

advertising right? can.

2007-01-01T14:02:00.000+08:00

heeeello 2007 :)) it's lovely to see you, i spent the last moments of 2006 really well. the met up with the sister Ang Zane was fun...? haha- it's always nice when the three of us gather. we go a long way back don't we? anyway- here are the contents:

Ang Zane explaining the us the come about if his new spectacles..

Ang Zane absorbed in his own explainary film of his new visonary toy while kan... well she thinks she looks fabulous in this picture. u think? jeox! haaa..

Ang Zane asking further explaining more, while kan just is herself, giving that sarcastic look, totally spoiling the 'nice' look previously ya? kaa-- count on her to do that.

well, we had to take a family photo right? check out Ang Zane's spectacles, it's merging with his eyebrows..

and of course i had to do something riight? so i do (((:

and kan wanted to do something too.. i have no idea what.

and the very last moments of year 2006 was spent with my family. it was really cool, i needed some peace as compared to the previous years. we counted down with the television together with Johnathan!!! hahaha- he's so cute lah. and my mom was like saying " wah- that johnathan very calm and cool hor? all the emcees all screaming and excited then don't know how to continue, he still know how to help them..." well, it's johnathan riight!?! and his voice!!! my goosh!! melting... still! i got a dream. He told me something. ya? (((: i'd follow. Happy New Year people! oh yeah- i didn't bathe you know? hahaha- i waited till year 2007 to do that. hahaha- i just had to do something riight?

2006-12-29T23:56:00.000+08:00

the weather is friggin cold. singapore's winter they call it. it's the season for brollies and dryers to unleash their powers i'd say. i don't have any photos to offer of christmas. i don't want to end it like that. sudden fear it grips me. i don't want it to end this way. still a few more days to prove. i'm gonna let it grip me this once. oh and. i finally finish my christmas shopping. hah- i know. it's like the end of the year. sorry lah- i need a clearer view from Your window, i need a brighter torch to guide me, let me grip Your hand just a little tighter more, i'll admit that i'm scared. i don't want to waste anymore of Your time. this time. it's this time. i don't want to become like the others who wait around thinking. it's this time. Your revealations are all around me. i just have to do it. what is it that You have in store for me? am i not ready? what am i lacking that You want to see in me? i'll wait for You, you know it. dampening the situations huh? well, it's my virtual dumping grounf yo? i trust in Him lah, just sometimes it gets, you'll know. oh, i simply love kyo. i am such a banana. b-a-n-a-n-a-s (gwen stefani style)

2006-12-25T18:43:00.000+08:00

the lunch with huiying after xmas svc was dawning. i mean, i realised that i actually accomplished what a goal i had set in the beginning of year 2006. which is really cool. like the seed You've planted in me i sowed it out. like the water You gave me to grow, empower me to help them. to shower them so they grow, so their roots dig deeper into You, for You. on a lighter note. i'm finally going back to work after a week of hiatus. i'm worried about my pay yo. God.... my a&b... on the other hand. my results... my course... year 2007... my calling.. jeex!
merry christmas yall! and a great new year ahead ((:

2006-12-20T01:10:00.000+08:00

15th of december it was the departure of my mum off to genting, elder sis being away in penang, second sis staying over at friend's, dad going off to a wedding dinner, i was left alone for dinner. So my clever mind remind me of somebody and i grabbed her. ((: i took kan to my house to cook for me!! it was a time of fun. a piece of memory kept safe. anyway. i love spermarkets. my mum got to taste kan's culinary skills too before she went. (: it was a pleasent evening.My plate of spagetti mixed with minced beef.

Kan's, it was taken at a weird angle so do not think she ate dinner side ways, haha-

Dinner's main dish: Cereal Prawns!!! lovely-- i'm drooling all over once again.. kan..../sheepish smile/

Didn't want to waste the egg whites(the york was together with the CP) so i asked kan to fry it anyway with the rest of the cereal that was stuck on the pan.. delicious outcome i'd say. (:

here's presenting you the chef for that night. haha-

and of course there would be me too, enjoying the food.((((:

well, i had to do something out of the way right? if i were to be me. haa-

well, she had to do something to, since i did something. i have no idea what objective she had in mind when she took this. at least mine was to tell you how i'm enjoying the food. but that? go figure. haha-

lastly, this. this led kan into an uproar of laughter. the kind that leaves a ringing inside your ear when the laugher stops. jeez. i wanted to show her how my fringe hair could stand, but what i got instead was that i had xiao long nu's hairstyle. weeeelll- what can i say. weird people, just leave them alone. haa- now where that came from, go figure. (((:

now i just had to leave you with that. don't ask. i just love this picture of myself. HAH!

2006-12-14T00:12:00.000+08:00

Third day at CBTL was slackishty fun. Was stationed at the counter this time, didn't get to grow fat in the kitchen.. Working closing hours means i get to bring back the left overs for my family. though they sound bad but they still taste good for my family! (((: frankly though i seem to have fellow barista who... don't seem to be as polite/fun to me as the others. anyway- steven boss still is the same, today tomorrow, super Lame. fyi: i'm eating a tuna puff taken from CBTL. i know, look at the time- still. that's me (: oh yeah- got my name tag too- it says:and i'll leave you with..

just in case you missed me (((((:

2006-12-04T21:47:00.000+08:00

did i mention i love sneezing? i have no idea why i do but i just do. hah- anyway. i'm sick. somehow i feel stronger now that i'm sick. first day at CBTL was fun. fellow baristas were friendly and helpful. yay! i am of knowledge in preparing certain drinks ok.. so latte is one shot the other is two shots.. the low fat milk.. the pulling of foam.. i love it (: though i am pretty worried about the pay-- hm. i'm praying that it will rise from the measly amount that i saw on the paper... and that is pretty much all.

i won't let it go down to waste i won't let it go. catching the fire keeping it in flames. i rebounce.

2006-12-02T22:09:00.000+08:00

went for sat svc! yay! hah- after two weekends of sun svcs, i'm happy to be back in the company of my cell members. persisting on i know i will make the mark. believing You can't and won't be wrong. i just need to believe.
(okay i wanted to put a picture up but obviously it isn't here so that means i can't, something's wrong. i signed up blogger beta and they give me this kind of service? ahh-)

2006-11-29T21:43:00.000+08:00

went back working at pro-teach today and boy was it noisy. gives me all the reasons not to aspire in becoming a teacher in school. hah- P6 boys whose real ages were actually younger than their status. funny though when you're a teacher with them they react rebelliously. but as you ask them about their own furture and things like that. they become docile and actually speak nicely. jeex. what's up with that? haa- anyway these are really minor. and karen wants me to go back tomorrow???!!!!!! can you already sense the reluctance? becuse then you'll be right. still, she has yet to tell me about the details. so, yeah.

i've been talking a lot i guess. but some how the actions don't show the meanings in my words. i'm so sorry. but i have no idea where i've gone wrong.

2006-11-24T19:30:00.000+08:00

though i intended to wear these for grad tea, they weren't ready cuz i had no time to do em. but anyhows, they're done now. HOOTS!! i'm so proud of them ((: their first journey into the world wasn't exactly good. concerning the heavy downpour i was involved on my way to cell. anyhow, the colours didn't run which was good enough already. hah!

2006-11-24T18:51:00.000+08:00

grad tea was fun. though kan and i were late. flaunted our diva side. lol. pretty nostalgic after it all ended. but i guess i'll really feel the emotions when we finally get our results. that really marks the end of our secondary journey. or the first day when we step into the

colleges/polytechnics. tsk. meanwhile, enjoy.

Grand Hyatt break a neckJenn and moi
The Trio with break a neck

TERENCE TOH! with break a neck

The band(: my seat's view dinner table

MR WEE!! most patient teacher with taufik

that's pretty much all actually, most of the time we were shouting away and being ourselves. the 5Ns!!!! hah! i mean, just have a good time lah, go crazy. we were the man dude! though we might not have won the class video grad king and queen were from us! haha- all the best yall!

2006-11-11T00:02:00.000+08:00

wah- decompostition officially starts for me as friday comes and go. nontheless i shall still be nice and considerate to the others who still have papers coming the next week. (: but foe me, next week compromises of various activities: improving my guitar skills, and finding a suitable job, and fulfilling some of my long lost but found desires like: painting shoes, shopping, waking up late!!!! that is SO needed. (: i know He will provide. and sure He did with the shower kan and i experienced on our way to school- haha. luo tang jis- i hope we didn't get marked with inappropriate attire unknowingly, not as if we planned it.. heh. and i was just wondering, it was raining, how come it never occured to the guards or anybody with the backgate key to unlock it. shoots- we were shivering on the way home. haha- i hope we don't get warts like lixian did. hahahahaha- i'm laughing a lot yo? boy am i relaxed. see, i'm online, i'm updating whoa- like finally? oh well.

finally i know it's my heart that you want-

2006-11-03T01:13:00.000+08:00

mount sinai=perserverance=intensity=fulfilment=strength=faith=bigger capacity=greater faith=greater strength=bigger fulfillment=greater intensity=bigger perserverance=greater harvest=greater the glory of Him shines=YES!!
mount sinai my destination.

2006-11-02T16:08:00.000+08:00

well- seems like im always updating lyrically. hm. basically because that's what i'm feeling these days. NERDS rule!

you were gone for so long
am i to be comforted you still remember us?
how has it been out there?
have you been happy travelling?
and did you find what you wanted?

journeys inside out
caught up in the tentacles
i screamed and kicked
i lost to myself.

woo-hoo, cgm's tomorrow, and i really hope for it to be good! before we go onto the battlefield.

2006-10-31T01:24:00.000+08:00

this is it. the last stretch. facing it with a bob. haha- you know it really is ending. pretty sad come to think of it. graduation day. but yo? my examinations aint over. hm-

this is the closing chapter

bittersweet knowing it'll be over

it is the last of events

we could be lost forever

but right now tonight

before tomorrow's sunrise

i'm telling you

you are inevitable

permanant in my history book

somethings you'll never know

somethings i'll never say or do

but right now tonight before tomorow's sunrise

this moment says that we're good together

the next mintue's everybody's best guess

bittersweet knowing it'll be coming(it'll be coming around)

this world's neither big nor small

this could be our see you later(see you later)

so right now tonight before tomorrow's sunrise

do whatever

let forever take it's meaning

right now tonight before tomorrow's sunrise

i'll remember forever

2006-10-27T10:40:00.000+08:00

Thank God. i got the photos. Kudos to JENNIFER as well- haha. now- my art can finally walk. oh yeah- another piece of writing

your eyes were red they were tired they cried

the glasses don't hide they just prove the reality of your weariness.

you don't have to explain yourself everytime

remember how your heart beats

sunsets promises sunrises let it take over

darkness will pass images will fade away

just don't say you can't win this

i'll be with you so be with me we can win this.

2006-10-25T11:39:00.000+08:00

somebody help me please!! i can't get my phone connected to my PC!!! shootx! and i desparately need the photos from my cell to do my art... oh jeex.

2006-10-22T14:10:00.000+08:00

i need to let some steam off. childish behaviour is not accepted. unreliable self-centered. i forgot. you're in a hole. all you see is darkness and yourself. of course you're like that. what's worse. you let yourself believe all the stupid excuses you made up. you're so stupid.

2006-10-20T22:21:00.000+08:00

it's hectic you know. but i'm optimistic nonetheless.

2006-10-18T15:52:00.000+08:00

art paper 1 is over and it has been a miss of going to the art room after school. all the laughter and anger and helplessness at the same time, it is greatly missed. not forgetting paper 2 though, i could do this for the rest of my life, seriously. nothing makes me happier than doing the things i love. music and art. hopefully i'd be able to dap into both in my future career. hah! i feel pretty proud about myself, staying up late to study, i could never do that in the past. not that it's a good thing at all i suppose. heh-
i'm on my journey to mount sinai once again. i feel it nearer, but not so near-- haha-- i want the electric shock again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
that's all.
shock me again--

2006-10-04T17:07:00.000+08:00

i'll update jsut a wee bit before nad comes and ka-chiao saying that i should. so there you go. (: art is intermible. O preparation are crazy. that's school life. and i love it. i love the rush. funny.

2006-09-27T23:09:00.000+08:00

i receive your breath without fear i come to God in the most highest honour i will love you forever--

2006-09-24T14:44:00.000+08:00

i wanted to update about the band's reviving jam session but Nad beat me to that.. so here i am.. i'm laughing cuz my 1sis just asked "eh, what is emo huh?".. "what kind of a stupid word is that? it's not even a word" .. "so it's just those guys wearing checked pants and thick specs lah" /guffaws/ or rather /khor khor khor khor khor(french laugh from Will and Grace)/ haha-- whatever.. oh yeah.. anyway..since Nad updated most parts of jamming session i shall update on a song i wrote implusively cuz she was so depressed bout her vocals.. improvised on the bus way home..

the leaf fell to the ground
but don't frown just smile
lift up the corners of your mouth
today is a bright one
don't let the dark clouds get to you

he had his reasons on the space flight
to find a star he could wish upon
she needed her freedom to swim
and be anything at all to date

that's all..
feel free to fill in the blanks yo?

2006-09-19T21:53:00.000+08:00

hearting Keane.

2006-09-17T13:58:00.000+08:00

THANK YA'LL!!

for the lovely pressies.. and the companionship i couldn't get anywhere else in the world. woo-hoo. ticking a couple off from my wishing list. and i did not know audio adrenaline was breaking up. doontx. that's sad. well. birthday's over. I'M OLDER NOW!!!! pheesh. art. art. art. art. art....

2006-09-15T12:47:00.000+08:00

unless you're blind, you can see the change. i was born 17 years ago but now on my birthday i'm actually more concerned about my prelimary art paper. check out the irony-disaster; death. hm. excuse the car's comment. keane's my self given birhday present. i love it. the phone was flooded with birthday messages and i'm contended. i really want a portable music player.... ma?

2006-09-07T23:38:00.000+08:00

september's hols are ending soon and it was filled with revision, subway, nad, guitar and music. not forgetting ben's long lost son.. anyway, i assume they had a real bonding time with their inner child. (:
the endings of this one week of holidays is bittersweet. the prelims made me forget that i'm getting older on 150906. getting older means maturity, proceeding to greater responsibilities. now where did that come from? anyhoots. i thought i'll prepare a list to let some special people's brain work much lesser and have an easier time. it's random. (:
creative zenVideo (hoot-hoot!!)
seinheizer heandphones
CCCyouth new 2disc cd
planetshakers new disc
john bevere's drawing near
dumpling birthday cake
keane's under the iron sea
converse black sneakers
Him to be nearer everyday.
just a couple... haha-
anyway, you don't really have to follow, yet it'll be nice to tick some of those above off (((:
most of all. it'll be nice to know that my friends are around me. ((:
i'm really nice right?
haha-

2006-08-30T19:57:00.000+08:00

two home-clothed policemen dinged the house bell this afternoon inquring bout my next door neighbour..
wonder what's happened.. cuz it ain't the first time the police came~
anyhoots this is another short entry compared to regina's recent long entries also judging the fact that i don't always have much to say compared to ms kan.. who got back her wallet today.... YEAH!! the wallet sisters ARE BACK!!!
singapore idol!!! JOHNATHAN!!!
tata homies..

2006-08-28T20:26:00.000+08:00

woo-hoo! did you know? they give away mini spongebob and patrick for free when you seat SQ planes? cool. and i got it cuz big sis went to NZ seating SQ and it's so adorable.. i shall spoil the whole 'volcom image and stick spongebob on the bag.. wahahaha. so dinner's ready and i must be off to it.. the neighbour's shitz tzu's (no pun intended) yapping like crazy.. so i'll be leaving you with something..
i, like, laugh when i see her say that. (hint: paris hilton)
guess on people..

2006-08-26T14:25:00.000+08:00

finally i found ms KAN YING HUA. turned out that she went to the supermarket with her ma. i almost resorted to messaging her mom.. anyway now i found her i will be on my way to svc.. (: you know the more you don't want to go the more you should go? anyway i side-tracked a bit, so i'll come back. and i'm leaving now cuz i must get preparing to go for svc.. hahaha. am i lame or what? anyhoots, my entries don't worth plops so. ta.

2006-08-20T19:44:00.000+08:00

KEANE LYRICS

"Everybody's Changing"

You say you wander your own land

But when I think about it

I don't see how you can

You're aching, you're breaking

And I can see the pain in your eyes

Says everybody's changing

And I don't know why

So little time

Try to understand that

I'mTrying to make a move just to stay in the game

I try to stay awake and remember my name

But everybody's changing

And I don't feel the same

You're gone from here

And soon you will disappear

Fading into beautiful light

Cause everybody's changing

And I don't feel right

So little time

Try to understand that

I'mTrying to make a move just to stay in the game

I try to stay awake and remember my name

But everybody's changing

And I don't feel the same

So little time

Try to understand that

I'mTrying to make a move just to stay in the game

I try to stay awake and remember my name

But everybody's changing

And I don't feel the same

2006-08-20T19:34:00.000+08:00

what can i say? i wouldn't be surprised if time came and we find ourselves lost. but i wouldn't say it didn't hurt and that i didn't try. you just weren't/aren't you anyway. maybe it's just a passing moment that will pass eventually but come again once more. could this ever stop? who are you at all? liar.

2006-08-17T20:02:00.000+08:00

certain points to make..

-to all the friendster requests, sorry for the late replies, my e-mail acc went crazy on me again and refused to load the pages, it kept asking me to sign in again as if i'm the theif and not the real owner so.. yeah, i'll reply soon. ((:

-euphoria overboard!! the jersey have arrived today and i love it. enthralled to have me looking at it always. i'm just so happy to have it, it reminds me of my class, of yesterdays how we are a class.. one voice one soul. i love you 5N106!!!/smooches/

-planetshakers rock inside out!!

-thursday, johnathan!!!!!!!!!!!

-bye.

sweet annointing wash me over

2006-08-11T23:07:00.000+08:00

random facts
7. i cry easily even in comedies, bring it on.. (heh)
6. i care a lot about my friends even if i seem nonchalent (sry)
5. i love reading books..
4. i love watching tv..
3. the trinity rocks my life
2. art keeps me sane vice versa..
1. music is life to me..

things that scare me
7.
6.
5. a colony of ants
4. cockroaches (ultimate grotesque)
3. losing my five senses
2. being far away from him
1. not able to spend eternity with certain people

random music at the moment
7.
6.
5.
4.
3.
2.
1. currents - DC

things i like the most
7.
6.
5.
4.
3.
2.
1.

things i say the most
7. tsh
6. what
5. phfffftt
4. uh...
3. ha-llo?!
2. crazy
1. horrible!!

sorry, i got tired, bored and ah... i'll finish the rest like other blanks.. whatever.. heh.

2006-08-09T22:43:00.000+08:00

my camera died on me, so don't expect photos from me. team singapore was cool, but team italian was way cooler? not to mention that couple who stood there, infuraites me further than ever. /urrrggggh!!!/ nonetheless-man i tell you it's disgusting, anyway i do have a few on my phone..not that it's ever going to appear here, still it's nice to know i will have fond memories to fall back on if i ever lose contact with my class-maties.. ((: it was also the night that dickson lost his head.. hah! of course, only the people who came would know what i'm talking about.. ((: anyway.. i'm cool. hah.

you would know what goes inside every nook and crany of my heart, you would know

2006-08-08T15:02:00.000+08:00

since nad complains so much about the nonchalent "attitude" i am giving her, this entry is dedicated to her. (happy?) (hah!) but seriously, i mean it from the bottom of my heart. ((:

CONGRAGULATIONS to MISS KAN YING HUA (nad)

for getting the 1st in standard in GCE 'N' Level 2005!!!

i'm SO proud of you!! ((:

i know someone else would be VERY proud too!!(:

2006-08-07T21:03:00.000+08:00

i decided to update since tomorrow's national day celebration in school, besides the maths mock paper 1 and the one and half hour programme before, nothing else happens, of course you cannot forget the steamboat. my first time!! and it's going to happen with my class-maties!! wunderful! i will have my camera along.. hopefully i'll get some good footage of the fireworks... woophey!

i need to be moving but like a child can be stubborn and ignorant, i'm crawling..

2006-08-06T14:14:00.000+08:00

we're into august yet i fail to really feel the spirit august should have brought. first and formost, who(??) is singing the song for 06? and how come i don't hear it at all???? that itself brings down quite a bit on the notches. that's not my point anyhow.

the trip to FOP with zaneco(zane and company, like electric company turned electrico? yeah.) was fun. the crossing of roads, the not-so-good guide, and of course how could i forget, the hand sign. /pheesh/ the taxi chase with zane was funny. i bet we left the cad driver with a ringing sensation after we got down. man, we were so loud, hooting bout how we have to find rajeeve and stop zane from taking over us. and how can you not mention the amount of sign language we put in? well, security checks were stricter this time round, but of course you can never beat the minds of a youth /beams/. nad and i had our burgers wrapped under our jackets. /sheepishly/

FOP was good with the CCC youth opening then don moen came.. but there was this point of time where it felt like a concert rather than the actual festival of praise.. nonetheless, i'm really happy i went.(((((: the journey back home in 985 was really filled with the tramautizing event of regina from the vibration of a handphone.. /wahaha/ grossed out though. i wonder how we got there in the first place?

i am upset. tails ain't coming over to me anymore.. 2sis got the pink pig and he's Crazy over it. darn.

can't wait for tuesday's steamboat!!!

and you're not that far away, satellite star...

2006-08-02T19:57:00.000+08:00

it's singapore idol day and i'm left without the company of nad at my house, due to cramps and migraines developing in her body. tsh. lao-ya y'know. anyway, that's her (: heh heh. eversince we moved, we've been getting a whole lot of trouble we don't really deserve. greenie boiled it down to this simple fact: they ain't happy that we're occupying their class. my version of it? sore losers. just because they did something wrong, everybody else has to take the blame. well i'm sticking with my class. and of course justice does play a bigger part. oh well. it seems that the 5ns don't deserve any good, from how the teachers put it. just because we are 5ns, we are 'suppose' to get the lower goods than the 'express' classes. well, the world is like that, so are most of the people in the world. no further intention of wallowing in self-pity, i'm looking forward to Johnathan's performance../swoons just a little/ YAY!

no matter what other people say, i know my stand in You

2006-08-01T22:08:00.000+08:00

ah-choo! sorry bout the dust. haven't been met up with mr PC but only to rip cds or art-recently. let's start with the most vivid events. the BIG move to the air-conditioned room two floors up. so much for giving us the 'pleasure' of enjoying the 'preveilage' in a a/c room. we were slammed right in the face, when we did really nothing. of course i will not deny the label of 'destroyers', still... i love my class nonetheless, no matter what others may say of us. i do not regret the days i spent with 5N1 peeps. my vibrant buddies, my greenie(potassium(IV)maganate, water junkie...[take your pick]), Oh-ruru, ber, ah-mee, si-ruui... and not forgetting the guys..((: so is this a tribute? whatever.

i absolutely do not approve of what the guys did today. it does not sound that dangerous, still too much of a unharmful thing can be harmful, it overkills and backfires, you'd get hurt in the end. sniff what sniff. it's sad the fact that search for the 'high' subsitude in things like those. they are actually just my classmate buddies, but it still aches to see them do all these. ah, put it all aside. all these times will be gone, what will you do with the new? now that sentence is somewhat irrelevant, i just thought of it, cuz i'm hearing Electrico's Hip City-Hello.

i'm waiting eagerly for the future, what You'll bring me into. i believe in Your promises and i will trust You with all my heart, no matter how far i may fall, my heart is forever Yours. Thank You Lord.